Reflections with One Day Left

Hosea 6:1 "Come, let us return to the LORD; for he has torn us, that he may heal us; he has struck us down, and he will bind us up."

This has been the resounding verse for the last month. It has been easily the hardest month out here. I mean Evan told me that it only got harder but I guess I just decided to not believe him and be suprised. Most of all I feel emotionally drained, almost like I've lost the ablitity to feel. I'm also spiritually exhausted. and my right hand is dying. But I've got one day left and then I'm heading to Banff to see the family and then home after that. Jesus will be faithful to restore me after this trying season. I've learned alot about how I react in high stress situations and it turns out I've got room to grow in dealing with people.

anyway I'll end this blog with a peom I wrote during probably my losest point spiritually out here.

Staring at the shiny surface
startled at the depth
wondering what lies beneth
longing to see into the darkness
to bring from dark to light
from empty to full
from meaningless to purpose
from death to life

to see the unseen darkness of the soul
to taste my very heart
to have my dark depth brought froth
....and shutter

Will I bury it again
Or let Him bleed for it

Oh that blood would shine over the dark depth of my soul

Heat Wave

These past three days we have had the worse heat wave of the season. [some people figured we were due] but I got a rank sunburn day one, had to quit early day two and today I ran out of steam with forty-five minutes left. Two people quit today, I think because it is so bloody hot. But I'm still warring through it with my planting partner Mushi [who is from Africa and doesn't get hot, and is good at finding bird's nests on our pieces]

This who business has got me thinking of the New Heaven and the New Earth

Rev 20:23 The city does not need the sun or the moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light, and the Lamb is its lamp.

One assumes then there won't be any terrifing heat but only nice decent heat...something to look foward to.

~CHAD